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The Motivation
One day (April Twenty Fifth, Two Thousand Twelve) I felt like I was going to die. I had just recently gotten a job I really wanted and I was alone in my apartment when I began to feel dizzy and weak. At this time, I had no registered health problems, but no health insurance or means of visiting a doctor. I was maybe three hundred sixty pounds or more, and I was eating like I wanted to die. Perhaps I did want to die. I've always wanted to be a writer, regardless of my love of computing and software engineering. So I want to fulfill my definition of being a writer, and that's writing every day. This blog is a challenge to myself. I don't require readers.
One day (April Twenty Fifth, Two Thousand Twelve) I felt like I was going to die. I had just recently gotten a job I really wanted and I was alone in my apartment when I began to feel dizzy and weak. At this time, I had no registered health problems, but no health insurance or means of visiting a doctor. I was maybe three hundred sixty pounds or more, and I was eating like I wanted to die. Perhaps I did want to die. I've always wanted to be a writer, regardless of my love of computing and software engineering. So I want to fulfill my definition of being a writer, and that's writing every day. This blog is a challenge to myself. I don't require readers.
The Challenge
In order to become a writer, one must write every day. Well... maybe not EVERY day, but writing is the primary thing a writer does. And speaking about everyday, this brings us to the challenge: Write something (e.g. fiction, non-fiction, a radio show, a comedy sketch, a series of jokes, a poem) every day for the next year. If I can do that, maybe I can get so encroached in the habit of writing that I begin to really achieve something with it. Maybe I'll finally be able to stand up and proudly call myself "Marc the Writer." And then that's one less thing on my bucket list.
The Name
The idea for the name of the blog came from a horror story. The basic plot was Cthulhu dreamed of being this terrible monster, this destroyer of worlds, this insanity inducing demon from beyond the stars. But then he would wake up and have to deal with his vanilla existence, wife, work, bosses, bills. The horror of this story came from the trapped feeling we all sometimes have to deal with, that feeling we get when we have to work overtime just to feed ourselves or make sure all the bills get paid on time. The name for me comes from how I feel about myself ("madness") and what I feel shame for not being ("normalcy"). And I thought, if a being of normalcy sometimes dreams of chaos and insanity, do beings of madness dream of normalcy?
M.M.
-One day I woke up, and found the world sound asleep.-
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